The costume looks much better on the doll than on Mr. Neilson, that’s for sure. When I was putting it on I realized two things. 1. I neglected a bottom. I put the baby’s jeans back on because the diaper just seemed obscene. 2. I attached the skirt differently than I’d intended, but I think it worked out better for ease of construction. The other option was to simply sew the fold-over elastic on top of the bottom edge of the top. It would have given it a more defined waistband, but I also risked the slippery fabric being a jerk. Maybe next time.
In other news, I realized what makes me so frustrated about costuming, and what I really need to find a way to get over.
I feel so damn inadequate. I’m often unimpressed with my results, and I find the pathetic green-eyed monster coming out when I see everyone else’s costumes. Case in point, The Bowler.
Once upon a time, I was rather proud of this costume. The more I look at it, and the more I study the real deal, the more I see how short I fell. And my immediate, knee-jerk reaction to inadequacy has always been to give up. I am clearly not awesome, so I should probably just go home.
And I know this thinking is wrong. I know what I should be thinking is, “Okay, so there are some things I could do better, so let’s do them better next time.” Mistakes are learning experiences, and whatnot.
I will never truly enjoy costuming… Hell, I will never truly enjoy anything… if I can’t stop comparing myself to others. I’m not really sure what the key to this is, but I guess the place to start is to correct those thoughts after I acknowledge them. And to use it as a driver to improve, and not to give up.